Sleeplessness in zante
Ah what the heck I thought at 9 am this morning. Ill sleep in today. 4 hours later I woke up with that familiar shock of guilt. You know the kind that lingers from childhood. I could almost hear my mothers voice screaming " You will waste the whole day away!! The sun is shining". For when the sun was against all odds shining in gods forgotten village in th middle of Sweden, it should not go go waste.
Built in memories from childhood often stay with you for the rest of your life they say. However, some rearrangements in emotional priority are necessary depending on where in the world you are. Being on a Greek island, where the sun shines well, mostly every day. There´s no point in letting guilt swill over you cause you stay in bed on a sunny day. Which is what I try to tell myself lately. Yes, this whole sleep until noon thing is more of a pattern than sporadic incidents a couple of times a week.
I tried self diagnose with insomnia type 1. But the symptoms are not right. .Accordingly the most common reasons are "stress and lack of excersise". I do nothing but excersise and relax!!
But then again that was on Wikipedia... The most reliable scientific source since askjeeves.com. There can be no other explanation to my current state. I won´t sleep, no matter how much the body wants to, the mind is a darn maverick doing its own thing.
Luckily for me I am not bored in my nightly lonliness. I am like the squirrel in the fall during the night. Planning, preparing, gathering and being productive.
Nik´s dad seems to suffer from the same disease as me. When I go downstairs at around 3 ish to make tea..he sits with his glass of wine chainsmoking in front of the TV. We just nod at eachother, as we both know what the other one is thinking: Another night of insomnia.
Built in memories from childhood often stay with you for the rest of your life they say. However, some rearrangements in emotional priority are necessary depending on where in the world you are. Being on a Greek island, where the sun shines well, mostly every day. There´s no point in letting guilt swill over you cause you stay in bed on a sunny day. Which is what I try to tell myself lately. Yes, this whole sleep until noon thing is more of a pattern than sporadic incidents a couple of times a week.
I tried self diagnose with insomnia type 1. But the symptoms are not right. .Accordingly the most common reasons are "stress and lack of excersise". I do nothing but excersise and relax!!
But then again that was on Wikipedia... The most reliable scientific source since askjeeves.com. There can be no other explanation to my current state. I won´t sleep, no matter how much the body wants to, the mind is a darn maverick doing its own thing.
Luckily for me I am not bored in my nightly lonliness. I am like the squirrel in the fall during the night. Planning, preparing, gathering and being productive.
Nik´s dad seems to suffer from the same disease as me. When I go downstairs at around 3 ish to make tea..he sits with his glass of wine chainsmoking in front of the TV. We just nod at eachother, as we both know what the other one is thinking: Another night of insomnia.
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