The last smoke?

Its been exactly three weeks ago since I smoked my last cigarette. I stopped it, just like that, after 10 years of puffin on those things. I can't say it's been difficult, but not easy either. I have developed a love hate relationshp to cigarettes. Some days I looong for them, I would do anything to have one, and others i view the smokers as the scum of the earth. I recent the stink of puffin at the busstop or in the street.
I still think that I am a smoker though..I do not consider myself 100% a smokefree person. I don't want to fool myself to beleive that I am free now. I can feel the drawback luring behind the corner, but I am going to be ready. Won't let it affect me. I will be strong. And have another peice of chocolate.
The major test will soon come, Nikos will come to see me for 2 weeks. And dont excpect hi, to pay me any resåect in that sense...nooo..he will puff away with my mother in the kitchen at home (disgusting) and smile his big smile...saying "ey..I'm greek ey..I do what I want when I want"...
I will not let it affect me as i let another perice of choclate melt on my tounge.